2015 is in the history books, roaring it’s way out of the Doser household, quite more vehemently than that of a lion. It’s the dawn of a new day, a new year, and a whole new world of possibilities.
I’m like everyone else, well most everyone else, in that I do create some sort of resolution. And why not? It’s a new year, time for a fresh new start, and perhaps the opportunity to not just become a better person, but also to live my life as a better person. I tried to be a bit more realistic this year. I’m not setting some lofty weight loss goal or quitting some vice (I don’t really have any unless you consider eating peanut butter straight out of the jar a vice). No, instead I’m taking the opportunity to use the new year as a sort of strategizing session.
Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve sat back and pondered what was wrong with my life. Why did it seem that I was constantly spinning my wheels daily and not feeling any sense of accomplishment. I have a self worth, after all, and in order to feed that dreaded devil, I have to feel as if I’ve been productive. The Christmas holidays nearly wiped me out, but I continued to trudge forward, and in doing so I decided that once and for all I needed to treat my stay at home lifestyle as a “job”, a career per se.
When I worked in the corporate world, I maintained a daily list of items that needed to be accomplished in order for me to move on to the next day with a clean slate. Lately, I’ve felt as if I haven’t had any sort of clean slate with my life and that not only have I been spinning my wheels, but also sinking into mud.
Last week, I decided to go back to 4 years ago, when I was still a working mom, and do what I did then. I’ve made a schedule beginning at 5a with the boys (don’t worry, they get to sleep until 6:30). It allows for everything from personal writing time, which I’m doing now, to 2 hour work outs at the Y, lessons with the boys (reading, writing, arithmetic, science, history and Bible verses), lunch, nap time for Henry, my personal time with God, and even chores before collapsing at the end of the day with a good book or movie with my husband.
I’ve written out my schedule, what it will be daily, and have even allowed for Friday to be a free day for all of us! I hope this has become a more realistic resolution and that it is something from which we’ll all benefit. I hope this allows for me to start breathing again, to not feel so overwhelmed and to feel beneficial. And of course, I hope this also allows for me to maintain this blog a bit better as I continue to share with you our daily adventures.
I hope you all rang in the New Year in the happiest and best ways possible, and that the Lord will continue to guide you, be merciful, and most of all that you will find Him this year, if you haven’t. Happy 2016!